MOVED

hey guys,

i've moved. here's the link

www.msslasher.blogspot.com

just feel like breathing a new kinda air. have a good day y'all.

Pencarian Nasi Kerabu & Laksam Terbaik

Calon-calonnya:

1. Restaurant Pit Stop, Bangi, dekat MFI

2. Bazaar TTDI

3. Bazaar Bangi

4. Dekat dengan rumah Idris, sg.buloh

5. Restaurant Belanga, Midvalley

6. Pasar Ramadhan Kg.Baru

any more suggestions?

Kasih Sayang

saya selalu nampak couple di luar sana, boyfriend dia tolong carry the girlfriend's handbag. Saya tak faham lah, sebab handbag itu rasanya takdelah berat, dan anda beli handbag itu untuk matchkan dengan outfit anda bukan outfit boyfriend anda. jadi kenapa perkara sebegini ada acap kali terjadi? boyfriendnya pulak macam tak kesah menjinjit beg tangan wanita yang men-down grade kan kemachoan mereka. so gay. yang anda pulak kenapa suruh si dia bawak kehulu-kehilir beg tangan anda. jadi saya nasihatkan, kepada lovebirds di luar sana, note this down ya.

saya rasa nak delete lah blog ni :(

tapi sayang pulak kan, dah ade followers tapi I doubt they read all these crap.

semalam, I was not feeling well (dan juga rasa malas) jadi plan untuk pergi monash dicancel. Patutnya attend talent night to support my friends yang perform tapi I was afraid that nanti lagi teruk sakit I and nanti lagi penat pula kan.

Dah seminggu puasa, so far, satu bazaar ramadhan je saya pergi. Itupun sebab cari laksam. Oklah the laksam tapi I bet there are better laksam out there. ade member saya cakap kat bangi ada kedai jual laksam, nasi kerabu ade jugak.

"Erm laksam ek,tau..tp i tak pasti b4 bebuka ada ke tak sbb i slalu pegi kdai tu lepas bebuka. kat bangi, kg teras jernang.btul2 dpn mfi n sebelah masjid..kdai tu nama pit stop..laksam ada nasi kerabu pun ada..sdap plak tu" texted him.

so maybe for next week.

Monday ni merdeka. yang ke-..ke berapa ya? sorrylah, i kurang amik tau. very ignorant, i know. so I want to wish all Malaysian,

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!! WOO HOOOO!

gotta admit, i'm not that patriotic but cut me some slack, won't u. Saya perlu tahu lebih banyak tentang Malaysia nanti ade pulak tourist or foreigner tanya, tak tau lak nak jawab ape..bukan ke bikin malu je kan?

Before puasa starts, beriya-iya sangat nak diet kan. Kononnya nak go on a strict diet lah tapi obviously, sekarang nih semua hentam makan je.

it's okay, i tell myself. one step at a time. small steps. very small steps.. eh takde la small sangat. tapi sikit-sikit lah. nak go on a crash diet pun tak healthy.

next week dah nak start pergi gym balik sebab this week memang busy dengan assignments.

oh and recently, got to know this one dude sebab kononnya, ada someone interested to hire me. I was like "oh okay"

but recently, sadly, they hired someone else but takpe, bukan rezeki :)

Met the dude once and had a ..sort of...erm..had a long chat with him. banyak issue-issue semasa, gossips, grandmother story semua ada.

and he's a nice dude.

and! rupa-rupanya he knows my sister. rupa-rupanya he's studying in Glasgow. rupa-rupanya waktu i ke sana for Yusuff's birth and attended a birthday party, dia ada jugak.

rupa-rupanya dunia ni kecik je.

ada tengok movie Crash tak , the one with Sandra Bullock. macam movie tu pulak kan, everybody is connected to everybody.

the dude is a photographer. freelance lah. and dia nih and his friends ada satu projek...program.. event? whatever you wanna call it.. dorang raise fund for Rumah Kasih Sayang , an orphanage.

This dude cerita lah kat saya experience dia with these kids.

The kids makan in groups. let's say a group consists of 6 so satu dulang, dulang plastik tuh, satu dulang tu atas tu ada nasi, ada sayur kacang panjang sikit, telur sikit then bubuh kicap-kicap then dorang makan ramai-ramai, share dulang tu. the most touching part is the kids are happy eventho kena share ramai-ramai macam tu. bila kita tengok rasa macam tak cukup je. Just imagine kalau kita ada anak, and anak kita kena makan macam tu, sedih kan.

This dude cakap next week they're gonna visit them again so most probably I'll join them.

I've only lost a father, and I can stand on my own two feet now at 20 but just imagine them, baru 2, 3,4,5 tahun, baru nak kenal dunia tu apa, dah takada both their parents. I must consider myself very lucky.

InsyaAllah. My hope is bila saya dah financially stable, boleh support diri sendiri, saya nak adopt a kid. Kahwin atau tak kahwin lagi tu saya tak kisah. Yang penting, a kid can enjoy a better and happier life, insyaAllah. This responsibility is huge and i'm aware of that.

Aim umur around 26 or 27. Ada kerja, ada duit, ada responsibility, ada opportunity, insyaAllah saya adopt. aminnnn... kena kumpul duit banyak-banyak lah macam ni ;p

Kalau you're interested, try search group facebook: Rumah Kasih Sayang

Salurkan kasih-sayang anda ke channel yang betul.

Love and peace out!

emo randomness

I try to listen to some songs just so I can come up with something...something to write about in this blog. Unfortunately, nothing came up so again, like always, I end up just blurting out random stuff in here like.. like... like the gastronomic experience I had for berbuka puasa (*burp*) xcuseee mee..tee hee.... see, that's random.

Time surely flies like the speed of light now. Everything's going at a faster pace and I'm beginning to wonder if I can keep up with the pace and more importantly, If I am heading in the right direction. For the past 21 years of my life, I've been open to new experiences, I've been a patient team player, I've open up to many kinds of people, I welcome many kinds of people and that surely pays off because some of them ended up being really good friends with me.

I've begun to allow mistakes but reasonable ones of course. In a way, I've became calmer I guess, less gelabah kot, less paranoid. But still I can get a bit paranoid sometimes, can't help it.

My dad's dead, what's worst could happen?

It's Ramadhan now right? so every friend of mine who's staying at the hostel was so hyped to get back home and spend the first day of Ramadhan with their family. and so, a friend of mine, amidst of a conversation in relation of that, said something like this,

"Sedihnya tak dapat puasa sama-sama dengan my family. Rindunya my dad....blablabla"

immediately, a voice in my head responded "bitch, at least your dad's not dead. You should be grateful. Stop complaining"

and that's when I realised that I still have so much anger in me. Anger erupted from the tragic incident last year. I shouldn't have blamed anyone or even myself and I shouldn't feel like a complete failure, I shouldn't feel like I'm some charity case waiting for sympathy.

I know we've moved on, the whole family had moved on with our own lives but I can't deny the fact that the hurt is still there, rotting the insides of you. I've moved on but the road ahead of me

is just god damn scary

First ramadhan and aidul fitri without bapak ain't easy. it stings inside.

sakit....

Tak boleh main-main

TIME TO DIET LIKE CRAZY.

and not forgetting, focus more on studies. 

aaa tak boleh main2. 

Al-Fatihah to Ustaz Asri (Rabbani)

Banyak kali tuhan mengingatkan kita tentang mati tapi lepas seketika, kita lupa jugak kan. 

Semalam memang terkejut jugak la dengan berita kematian seorang vokalis nasyid, Ustaz Asri.

Saya minat jugak Rabbani. My favourite is intifada memang semarttt habis composition and lyric lagu tu kan. I'm sure Ustaz Asri seorang human being yang baik. Pemergian dia ditangisi ramai. and the brotherhood of Rabbani memang very inspiring i think. I saw the interview this morning and the other Rabbani members were trying so hard to hold back their tears. 

Pemergian dia memang unexpected. Tup Tup jatuh, heart attack, unconscious and there he goes.. dead.

macam tu je.

senang betul nak mati.

tapi kita semua macam tak takut mati.

solat tak cukup.

benda-benda maksiat still buat.

mengagung-agungkan yang haram and banyak lagilah perkara yang menambah value dosa kita.

takutnya mati.

sebab amalan memang confirm tak cukup, taktau lah bila boleh cukup.

kalau amalan dah cukup, memang kita mengalu-alukan kematian kan? sebab nak jumpa Dia cepat-cepat.

Saya ni. 

banyak dosa.

solat tak cukup.

sometimes suka cursing.

sometimes cepat marah-marah especially bila driving.

sometimes ade la jugak jadi gossipgirls.

dan banyak sangat lagi lah.

kalau saya boleh mintak one wish and sekelip mata that wish comes true.

saya nak mintak diampunkan semua dosa saya, biar bersih dosa-dosa. sebab rasanya dosa saya banyak sangat tak terkira.

lastly, Al-Fatihah to Ustaz Asri. Takziah kepada keluarganya dan hopefully the wife and children dah calm down dan terima ketentuan-Nya, and i hope they'll be strong to face the next years without him. 

Kehilangan orang yang kita sangat ambil berat dan cinta memang rasa macam hati you dah kena tumbuk jadi belacan and after that, you will feel numb. rasa macam tak ada perasaan dan susah nak genuinely rasa happy sebab di hati you ada kekosongan yang tak boleh diisi dengan apa-apa. tapi percayalah, as time goes by, bersabar sajalah dan focus on moving on, focus on apa kita nak buat di dunia ini buat waktu yang ada ni supaya bila mati nanti tak mati dengan tak tenang, banyak dosa dan dibenci ramai. insyaAllah.

Adidas King of the road- DEAD

Just thought that you guys would want to know. Last week, a body of a young good-looking 22 year old guy was found near Stadium Shah Alam. He participated in the adidas marathon and won third place if I'm not mistaken. However at the finishing line, he fainted and was taken away by paramedics and since that, no one knew what happened to him. He went missing.

The paramedics clarified that they had released Gary Leon Roberts- the 22 year old hot good-looking athlete, because he was conscious and basically his condition need no serious attention.

but the thing is, no one knew what had happened to him after that which is just...just plain weird. Well, someone should've known where he went!!! someone should! it just don't make sense at all.

I do not know who Gary is but I'm sure he is a very nice guy. There are many people out there who are mourning over his death. They described him as a very kind, a good son, a good friend, good in academics and sports ..in short, he's a very promising person, he's the kind of son you would want.

but sadly, he had to leave this early.

God knows best and May he rest in peace.

but it just doesn't make sense at all. the paramedics should've informed a family member or a friend of gary about his condition. or when they are gonna release Gary from their care, they should've informed him!

and the police said that he died of dehydration then what the heck was he doing in the semak samun? he would've walked right back to his friends and if he collapsed on the way to that, then that would make sense, but he didn't!

and what a lame explaination, dehydration?

the paramedics should've known that he was dehydrated!!!

don't you think that this whole thing is just so fucked up? that someone should really investigate this whole thing again.

and he is a fit young guy. how could he died of dehydration?

why was his corpse in that condition? my friend told me that there were bruises and his lips were gone. he had flat lips, almost none!

anyway, rest in peace Gary tho' I don't get the chance to know you.

If I die young, would I go to heaven?

Why would you wanna die?

I wanna live forever.

here?on earth?

No, in heaven.